Landers

Mary McAleese, the current President of Ireland, signed the Civil Partnership bill today and the queers of this green isle let out a collective sigh of relief in approval as they clapped quietly and sipped a Cosmo in a Sex in and the City commemorative cocktail glass. Well, not all of them!

“This is a great day for Ireland. Lesbian and gay people, (are lesbians not gay then Mary?) their parents, families, friends, neighbours, colleagues can now look forward to celebrating their civil partnerships in the near future,” she said.

She’s right. It is a great day for Ireland and it’ll be called a first step and some people will turn and say “Hey, it’s first step and the next time we discuss we’ll go a bit further!”

Well I’m sorry but I want that next step now! Countless people have been involved in this bill being introduced just like they were in other countries and many of them have explained what’s wrong with their respective bills but fags worldwide decided that a small step is better than nothing. Sorry but to me and many others who ride on my bus it’s not.

There are many things wrong with this bill but now it’s law all the faults will be ignored as politicians shout “you got what you wanted didn’t you?!”

Lets look at the terminology. News channels, politicians and the parents of homos will be turning to their gay viewers, constituents and children and saying “you two can get married now!” No we can’t! We can sign a civil partnership agreement. To get married we’d need be different sexes. Same sex couples cannot get married so let’s not call it “gay marriage.” Anyone can have a civil partnership, but only certain people can get married – those in relationships where one of them is a girl and the other is a boy!

My partner will forever be just that. He’ll never be my husband (or wife – as he should be!) he’ll only ever be my partner. Thank you but I already have a partner.

According to certain news channels my partner can now be my next of kin. Well, he was before, the bill has changed nothing. Sadly I mean that quite literally. It’s claimed that it makes provision for partners to be acknowledged as a next of kin but in reality it changes very little. My partner already is my next of kin. I give his name whenever I’m asked that question and the person completing the form duly fills in the details. What s/he doesn’t tell you, probably because they don’t know, is that if you get taken into hospital and your next of kin has to be called it’s up to the nurse who s/he calls. There is no law stating who the nurse has to call. On this one I speak with experience! A nurse can ignore your listed next of kin and call the person s/he thinks should be called. Know who that is? Your natural mother. It’s claimed that your mother is the only person who can truly be a blood relative and therefore a next of kin as she gave birth to you.

Simon’s natural mother gets a call to say he’s in hospital and she rushes to his side. When she gets there she finds his same-sex partner, Dave, stood outside the ward as the nurse won’t let him into the private room Simon has been given due to his homosexuality (yes, that does happen!). He asks her to tell the nurses to acknowledge him as Simon’s partner, his civil partner, and he has the paper to prove it! She doesn’t like him and has never liked the fact that her son is gay so she does nothing about it. But, he has that super bit of paper that give him insane power and control of Simon’s well-being! Nope, it’s still up to the nurses. Simon is dying and his mother calls a priest to give him the last rites. Simon, since coming out, turned his back on God as ‘God hates fags’ and the idea of a priest coming to his side is awful to him and to Dave who weren’t allowed a wedding as they’re both male shit-stabbers. She still goes ahead with it and Simon gets the last rites.

Dave cannot claim the body because she gets there first, cannot organise the funeral and more than likely won’t be able to attend as the family won’t tell him where and when it is.

Some readers might think that this is an extreme case but it’s not, this happens quite often it just doesn’t get reported as news agencies don’t want to publish too many non-celebrity gay stories for fear of losing ‘normal’ readers – and yes, again, I’ve heard that phrase used.

The civil partnership bill does nothing to change this and the only time it’s actually useful as a next of kin statement is when the partner is the one registering the death.

Lets say Brad and I decide to adopt. We’ve been trying to have kids for years but I think us both being guys and doing it ‘up-the-wrongun’ has something to do with neither of us being pregnant yet. So, we adopt. Wrong. “We” don’t. One of us does. Same-sex couples can foster but not adopt. So, we talk it over and decided that I’ll adopt and give Brad parental rights by registering a letter of intent with a solicitor. Huzzah, the child has two parents and can grow up in stable environment. Tragedy strikes and I die. Brad becomes a single parent. Actually he doesn’t, he just becomes single. The letter I’ve written and the civil partnership agreement he’s waving in the face of the judge at the hearing mean fuck all and the child is taken into care and placed up for adoption. Sure Brad could adopt him or her once he’s completed the paperwork and applied but as the social worker reads the form and find he’s suddenly single due to bereavement (not a widower as you have to be a husband to be legally a widower) he’ll be deemed unable to care for a child until he’s finished grieving which, by social services standards, will take two years – once again I speak from experience!

The civil partnership bill does nothing about adoption. Nothing at all. It’s not even mentioned.

I don’t give a flying handbag that this bill has gone through and to anyone about to say “it’s a step in the right direction” well don’t bother. It’s not. It’s not because this is the beginning of the end. Politicians won’t discuss it further as they think they’ve given the queers all they want. Oh it’ll be looked at, and someone will say “should we add…” and “maybe we should change…” but then someone, probably a straight person (no offence) will say “but they can get married so lets just leave it!”

Sorry but it’s not enough. Queens have been fighting for equality and are exploding in glitter now that this bill has been signed but how does it make us equal? It doesn’t, it keeps us different! I don’t want to be different.

I’m gay and I’m also 37.
I’m gay and I’m also white.
I’m gay and I’m also deaf.
I’m gay and I have size 12 feet.
I’m gay and I have a goatee.
I’m gay and I have a bad back.
I’m gay and I have a no living grandparents.

Do you see where I’m going? Do you see how many minority groups I belong to? None of these minority groups cause me any problems so why should being gay? If you saw me at work or on the street, saw me playing rugby or drinking a coffee you wouldn’t instantly know I was a poofter and it wouldn’t make any difference yet as soon as I want to express my everlasting love for my partner who I’ve been with for eight years so far, suddenly I’m different and not equal!

When you belong to a minority, you have to be better in order to have the right to be equal.

See you in August.

Love you x

I neither know nor care who said ‘I may not agree with what you say but I will defend to the death your right to say it!’ but it’s a statement I’ve long believed in.*

Although I know I’m not alone in the sentiment it’s a shame there aren’t more people who follow it.

Twitter, to some the bane of the Internet, is home to many people who think that because they have an outlet to vent they can do so by belittling the opinions and feelings of others without fear of anything other than cyber retaliation. The web often likes to call them trolls but I think the term “arrogant cunts” (AC’s from now on) is rather more apt.

Over the last few months here have been some of my opinions I’ve had challenged on Twitter.

1. The flotilla boarded by Israelis en route to Gaza.

2. Virtually all Apple products.

3. Hashtags

4. HTC

5. The film Avatar

6. Graham Norton & Brian Dowling

7. The existence of God (or Jeff as I’m now calling him)

8. Glee

9. Terry Pratchett adaptations on Sky1

(Explanations to each are below but do not form part of the purpose of the blog entry really)

I have an opinion on each of those topics and I’m entitled to air my opinion with the understanding that it may be rightfully challenged. If I’m not prepared to have it challenged then I shouldn’t really express it.

Now when I say ‘challenged’ what I actually mean is maybe tell me why you think it’s wrong and present your argument clearly. This, of course, would be the right way to do it.

There aren’t many people on Twitter who seem to grasp this concept. The challenges (and I use that word quite loosely here) have included phrases such as “you’re a twat” and “asshole” and the ever popular “no, you are wrong!”

Okay so I’m twat sometimes and often an asshole but I admit it (unlike most of you) but rarely, when it comes to my opinion, am I wrong. This is because it is my opinion. Yes, to you it might be wrong, but to me it’s not and by telling me I’m wrong without actually explaining your reason why is an incredibly childish and stupid thing to do.

Challenge my opinion by all means, I actually welcome it, and even try to get me to change it, but telling me that it’s flat-out wrong and then insulting me about it isn’t going to get you anywhere. In fact, if you knew me at all you’d know that’s it’s very much the wrong thing to do as I’m just going to dig my heels in even more and possibly start snapping back on everything you say no matter how big or small.

If you don’t agree with what I’ve said then say “I disagree, I think [insert your opinion]” and we can discuss it. Doing anything else just makes you a cunt. An arrogant cunt. An AC!

Now, in saying all that, I freely admit to being a cunt. If you look at my Twitter profile it actually says it in there. As such, until people start being a bit nicer when expressing their disagreement with one of my opinions I’m afraid you will get told you are wrong… in everything.

I’d like to say something inspirational along the lines of “be the change” but I know damn well it won’t happen. Most of you will still be cunts, just like me.

*I’ve since googled it and know who it as now.

Now, as I said above, here’s my opinion on the subjects mentioned above. Please feel free to challenge me on it in comments here but do so politely.

1. The flotilla boarded by Israelis en route to Gaza.

Didn’t enjoy Hogfather, that was all! Love the Discworld books, very much in fact, just wasn’t a fan of the Hogfather

I saw this a while ago but didn’t watch all of it as I wasn’t in the mood then yesterday I found it on a friends blog!

Such a good short film. I wish I did shorts of this quality. Very moving – you have been warned!

Trying to explain to my father how I know some people is often a struggle. Even more so when it’s people I’ve met off of the internet.

My friend Sam and I trained together at university but you can guarantee if I say to my dad “I’m seeing Sam tomorrow,” he’ll say “who’s Sam and where did you meet him?” When I point out who Sam is or if dad see’s her he remembers her instantly. Sadly he remember her by saying “Oh yeah, the blonde with the big moggies!” Moggies was my nan’s word for boobies!

If I say to him “I spoke to Dave last night,” he replies with “Which one is Dave again?” and the conversation continues along the lines of meeting Dave while working for a radio station but this itself brings more questions as he tries to work out which station it was and which Dave I’m talking about.

So I try to be very careful when explaining to him who I’ve been speaking to so as to try and limit the questions I’ll get asked so that I can actually get to the point of the conversation. If he asks too many questions I forget why I’m telling him I spoke to them in the first place!

You can imagine then the problems I have when trying to explain about the friends I’ve met off of the internet.

Trying to explain that I’m meeting up with people from a social networking site or a forum is incredibly difficult as he wants to know exactly how I got to know these people.

This though is the nature of friendships now. With the world getting smaller via the internet and friendships being made on an international level, having friends we’ve never met is something we’re going to have to get used to.

There are people I’ve met up with after meeting them through blogging or social forums that I’d now consider some of my closest friends. I’d go so far as to say I love them. In the same light there are some I haven’t met for real, only online, but I feel just as strongly for them as well.

My first real experience of this was using an AOL chat room. I got chatting to a girl called Adele. Adele Clee or ASClee as her screenname said. We would chat in the room or in an IM for hours about all sorts of rubbish. She told me all about the guy she was marrying and I told her all about my current beau and we compared notes and exchanged pictures. Strangely enough we never exchanged pictures of each other, just of our partners!

One Thursday night she told me she wouldn’t be about for a month or so but would email me. This was because she was getting married on Saturday and then off on her honey moon. She told me where she was getting married and I said I only lived round the corner. A small lie as it was at least a thirty minute drive away but I knew the area she was on about.

Then, totally out of the blue, she invited me and my other had to her wedding! A person I’d never met was now inviting me to her wedding! This was all very strange given that I didn’t know what she looked like. I didn’t accept outright but said I’d chat with Nick and see what we were doing. She understood.

So that night I explained to Nick about the wedding. He already knew who Adele was and had spoken to her a couple of times online himself. We talked about the idea of it and in the end decided to go.

As fate would have it traffic conspired against us and we arrived at the church more than halfway through the ceremony with a rapidly purchased gift in hand. The whole issue of a gift had bought more questions! How much do you spend on someone you’ve never met?

We decided not to go in and instead waited for them to come out. When they did we just stood in the corner of the church yard and waited until most people had said their congratulations.

Walking up to the bride I suddenly realised that I could actually be at the wrong church. Keep in mind I had no idea what she looked like, or her new husband or any of the guest and she didn’t know me either. It was the summer and most churches would have a wedding on the Saturday. This could be anybody!

Hesitantly I approached with a smile, caught her eye and just said “Adele?” She nodded and replied “Landers?” (and yes, she actually did as my screenname was my nickname which is the same as it is now!).

We hugged, chatted and explained, in truth, how we couldn’t actually stay long as Nick had been called in to work that afternoon.

After some pictures and champagne and strawberries on the village green we said our goodbyes and left.

I never spoke to her again in any form of communication and I couldn’t tell you why.

That same year I went to my first “meet” in a hotel in Blackpool where I ended up being the entertainment (a whole other blog entry) and meeting people I still chat with and care for very much. People who up until six months before the meet I couldn’t tell you anything about.

With the introduction of Facebook, Twitter, linkedin, Last.fm, blip and all the other micro-blogging or social networking sites my circle of friends has grown bigger and bigger and I’d say I was lucky if I’d met 10% of the people I chat to on a regular basis. People I call friends.

I wonder how long it will be before people are only making friends with those they’ve never met? Although it makes for an incredible international community I also think it’s quite sad future, if that’s how it’s going to pan out. I hope it’s not something I’m a part of but I know, as I sit here and write a blog entry I’m going to tweet about, that I’m helping to make the world smaller and friendship that little bit more impersonal.

There at times, believe it or not, when I’m away from my laptop. Such as during my course yesterday, if I’m on days at work or when I’m asleep. Taking that into account you can see that more often than not my laptop is either on my lap or in front of me somehow, or at the very least accessible by a walk through the mansion into another room.



Why then, with this being the case, is it that I think of so many things to blog about when I do not have the laptop? Also, why do I not make a note of these things I want to to blog about?! I’ve always got my iPhone with me, I can make notes on that but I don’t! Man, I’ve ever written blog entries on it!



With this in my I’m going to endeavour to be a better blogger. I used to love blogging, still do actually, I’ve just fallen out of the habit of writing things.



Part of me blames my lack of blogging on my old blog site. I used to use a generic blogging site, not as well known as Blogger or WordPress but still quite good. Sadly the site went downhill when certain trolls joined and when certain people I considered to be friends (some I’d met in real life and got close to) became cunts I couldn’t trust. That was the main reason for sorting out my own hosted site on my own space. At least this way I can block users, IP addresses etc. I can also post ANYTHING I like whereas the other site blocked certain things. Fuck ‘em, this is better.



So in conclusion (how very official of me!) I hereby promise to become a better blogger! So much so that I may just go and post the original blog entry on the other site, telling some of the other users what I think of them! Of course, then again, I may not.

In approximately ten hours a doctor is going to look at my head and – hopefully – book me in for lumpectomy.

I’ve had this lump for around six years now and have tried to get it seen to before but to no avail.

When we lived in Wales I went to see my doctor and he said “well I don’t know what it is so we’ll refer you to a consultant.”

‘Excellent’ I thought until three weeks later when a letter arrived.

Dear Mr. Landers,

Re: Referral from Dr. Will. C. Younow.

Having read Dr. Will. C. Younow’s referral I have decided that any work I carry out on the growth on your head will be purely cosmetic. With this in mind no consultation will take place and I’m not even going to look at it and give you an official diagnosis that it’s not a tumour or anything like that.

Please continue to worry about it growing and let me know if it causes you any pain or explodes.

Kind regards,

Mr. Misternotdoctor.

I told the doctor about the letter and he said he’d fight my corner. He rang me a week later to say he’d hand his wrists slapped for interfering and daring to question a man who is now so powerful and clever that he no longer has to use the title doctor! He said just to keep an eye on it – difficult unless I was a reptile but if I was a reptile the lump would be where one of my eyes should be! – and get in touch if it grew or caused me concern.

Well it grew. It went from the size a small pea stuck under my skin to a golf ball trying to break out the golf bag and enjoy eighteen holes. It didn’t concern me, wasn’t painful, was solid and even when stabbed with a needle it didn’t give anything out so I ignored it.

Last year I noticed it had got even bigger. So much so that I started to call it Brian and introduce it as my second head or congenital twin that I’d partially absorbed during my time in the womb. I was tempted to stick false eye lashes to it and tell people it was my third eye, it was just closed.

Doing some research about the Irish medical system – as we’d moved to Galway by this point – I found out it was going to cost in the region of €2500 to have it removed as they would probably consider it cosmetic as well. My research involved asking various people at work – nurses, doctors and clinical psychologist, house-keepers – none of whom would or could tell me what it was.

I was head-butted by one of the service users at work and saw this as the ideal opportunity to ask what it was while in the emergency department.

“It’s abnormal muscle growth,” said an american doctor who I’d seen before and had spent most of that time comparing our Jewish backgrounds with.
“What does that mean?” I asked.
“Well it won’t hurt but it doesn’t look nice. You should have it removed though.”

Again I was back to the €2500 and there was no way we could afford that – or that I’d be willing to pay it!

So the plan was hatched to create a lie and get some of grossly overpaid UK National Insurance back by registering with the doctor my parents use.

I registered my interest to join the practice in December 2009 and in the following March I went to see Dr. Cutebutfrenchandold.

“Well I’m not sure what it iz but it should come off oui?” he said
“I’ve been told it’s abnormal muscle growth.”
“Oui, it could be but it iz safer to get it removed oui?”
“Oui. I mean yes!”

He explained how the bigger it got the quicker it would grow basically insinuating that it would double in size every year or so. At it’s current rate of growth I’d be tilting my head to the right in six months due to the extra weight.

Dr Cutebutfrenchandold gave me a referral to a consultant who has graciously agreed to see me.

This is happening in approximately ten hours.

In my head I’m convinced he’s going to freeze it there and then and just slice it off. Brian is convinced of his demise as well and as such is growing even quicker and causing me a wondrous headache!

So I’m sat at Dublin Airport with a coffee that tastes like road scrapers mixed with urinal cake, waiting to board my flight to the UK where on arrival I will be arrested for defrauding the national health system and end up in prison. In prison they’ll be concerned about my welfare and will remove Brian for me. Either than or my cell mate Crusher Jones will do it with his makeshift knife while ass-raping me nightly.

I always look on the bright side don’t you think?

EDIT: As some of you may know the appointment never went ahead thanks to the volcanic ash from Iceland cancelling all UK outbound flights from Dublin – and eventually the whole of Ireland and then all of the UK!

Flights and hospital appointments have been rebooked and I’ll keep you informed.

Sorry for the delay in giving you the answer but I forgot!

So, remember this post? When asked you what you thought of this man?

Well personally I think he’s rather attractive. I certainly wouldn’t kick him out of bed other than to make coffee and/or fetch sandwiches.

Well his secret is that he used to be a she! I’ve seen quite a few post-op female-to-male transexuals but personally I think this is the most successful!

He used be an German olympian!

For more info on the lovely Balian Buschbaum (or Yvonne Buschbaum as she used to be!) take a peeky at his Wiki page or just google him!

I’d still do him!

Every year in the US the makers of Duck Tape offer a scholarship to the winner of their “Stuck at Prom” competition.

The rules are pretty simple: As couple make your prom outfit out of Duck Tape. Loads of kids take part and some of the outfits are fantastic and so well made!

The work that has gone into some of these is incredible. Below are some of the ones I like, more pictures are available on the site.

Below is my favourite. I’m very tempted to go out and buy lots and lots of duck tape and make one myself. Now, what shall I make?

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Read the story below and when told to please put yourself into Mark’s shoes. As you read think about how you’d feel, the kind of emotions you’d be going through and how you’d react. Also think about what you’d do!

Mark is in his thirties. He’s married to Caroline and has two children, a boy aged twelve and a girl aged nine. He loves his family very much. He holds down a full-time job delivering fishtanks and other such aquarium products and at the weekends (and some evenings) he helps his father-in-law on the farm.

In 2001 Mark and Caroline are given a piece of land by her father and they apply for planning permission to build a beautiful four-bedroom, two-storey house on half an acre of land. Planning permission in granted and by 2002 they have their family home. In 2005, during a conversation with Caroline’s father, they are given another piece of land with instructions to build two homes. One for them and one for Caroline’s parents. They agree and begin work on their next house with the plan being to build theirs first, move in, then begin construction of her parents home.

By early 2006 the new house is built and their old home goes on the market. Initially the house is up for sale at €399’995 and after a year it still hasn’t sold.

[Okay start putting yourself in Mark's shoes now!]

In the july of 2007, now reduced, the house still hasn’t sold and the price is reduced again to €335’000. Caroline speaks to the estate agent, behind Mark’s back, and tells them to put it on the rental market as well. There is no interest.

Come the November a young couple show an interest in the property with a view to renting and possibly buying in the future. Caroline has to tell Mark what she’s done.

Mark agrees to the rental, essentially realising that at least it’s some money coming in and the young couple might actually buy the place.

Mark and Caroline go round to meet the couple on the afternoon they move in. They explain how the couple are not to go through the estate agent for anything but come direct to them and hand over their mobile number. Caroline asks them to keep the dogs off the stairs.

Come the February of 2010 the couple inform Mark and Caroline that they intend to move out, not buying their house after all.

In the March Mark finds out that not only have the couple been letting the dogs upstairs but they’ve left marks all over the walls where pictures have been, broken a washing machine (which was replaced), left an empty oil tank and to make matters worse there is two and half years of household rubbish left in the barn out the back.

The couple had already contacted Mark and told him about the rubbish but due to the recession and unemployment they’d not be able to afford a skip for at least a month.

So what would you do? How would you react if you were Mark?

I’ll tell you how I’d react.

No.1. I’d be a bit upset about Caroline going behind my back and would probably have refused the couple the option to rent.

No.2. I’d be a bit angry about the marks left by the pictures.

No.3. I’d not really care about the dogs on the stairs.

No.4. I don’t think I’d notice the washing machine.

No.5. I’d be a bit pissed off about the lack of oil.

No.6. I’d be fucking furious at the rubbish.

Mark reacted very differently.

Mark let the rent go ahead. Never mentioned the pictures or washing machine or lack of oil. Ripped out the old carpet and laid down new.

And the rubbish? He arranged and paid for the skip and helped us move the rubbish (not by carrying bags but by getting a fuck-off hay bale and pushing the rubbish down with the tractor so we could get more rubbish in) and then stood chatting with us for a while.

Yes, we are “the couple” and Mark was our landlord. Yes, we left all the rubbish but it’s not as bad as it’s sounds. Okay so it could be but in my mind it’s not.

We had always intended to get rid of the rubbish but just never got round to it. When we first moved in Brad was working and I wasn’t and we could afford the bin service. There’s no council bin service in Ireland, you arrange and pay for it yourself. By the time I was working as well there wasn’t that much rubbish there and we started looking in to skips and a bin service. Before we could sort anything out Brad was out of work and we couldn’t afford it again. Brad has been out of work since then and we still never got round to it although we never forgot about it and if the move hadn’t have happened so quickly we’d probably have sorted it ourselves without him ever knowing.

We notice, at the back of the garage, an old fish tank. It had been there since we moved in. Today we asked him if we could buy it off him.

“Do you want a fish tank?” he said.
“Yeah,” I replied, “how much for that one?”
“Do you want a fish tank?”
“Erm… yes!”
“I’ll get you a fish tank. What size do you want?”
“As big as we can get!”
“Okay, give me a week. I’ll drop it out to your new place.”
“How much?”
“Nothing. I’ll give you a text when I’ve got it sorted. Be about a week.”

How nice is he?! For that reason alone I’m going to miss living in the old house but I LOVE our new one – and it’s going to have a fish tank in it soon!